Conundrums

In seventh grade, my best friend Kim Lackey and I decided that we were bored with the classes being taught. So instead of sitting in the class and going at the pace of the rest of the class, we tested out of almost all the classes. Since we were not allowed to test out of math, we instead did the year of math work in the first month of school. We were told that since we literally had nothing else to do for the year, that we could do basically whatever we wanted, just as long as we did not distract other people. It was a very relaxing year for me. I spent most of my time either in the library proof-reading the new books that the library bought to make sure that they were age appropriate for our school, or sitting in class playing solitaire. I also spent hours just wandering the campus. I was often bored out of my mind.

My favorite day of the week was Friday. On Fridays, Mr. Rainey would get our class together and he would read us a conundrum, and we would spend a good hour or so trying to figure it out. I loved/hated these conundrums because in my mind I would think that I knew what was going on, but then a simple response from a question would either dissipate my confidence in my answer, or strengthen it. When we discovered what the conundrum was, I would walk out of the class at the day's end wondering how I could not have figured that out from the very beginning.

My life is a conundrum. There are so many routes that I could take that could lead me to happiness, but I cannot figure out which one I should actually take. Every now and then I will get a glimpse of what my life could be if I decided to go a particular way, but there are so many other factors playing into my decisions that I have no idea what to do. I know that in 20 years from now, I will look back at this time in my life, and I will wish that I was more relaxed. I need to have faith that everything will work out for the best. There is no point in stressing about the future, for the future will come regardless of how much I worry about it.

My life may be a conundrum right now, but I refuse to worry about it. Right now, I am just going to live life to the fullest. I will live by my motto, “Life is meant to be enjoyed, not just endured,” and in the end I will be able to look back at my life without any regrets, knowing that I lived my life. And in the end, that is all that matters.


Peace and Blessings. Peeeaace and blessings :)